I’m a Physicist at CERN. We’ve done something we shouldn’t have – Part 3


The light lingered, and the point of emanation was more defined than the past two occurrences. There was no looking away from it. It was the most comforting, beautiful light that I had ever seen. I was completely totally transfixed.

“Come! Run! Let’s go!” It was Celine, she reached out towards me and pulled me into her. I could finally make out the details of her face, her’s being only inches away from mine.

“We have to go now Edward!” She squeezed my hand and we slowly started to move forward. At least it seemed like it was forward; directions were absent when we were in the light.

She hit the wall and felt for the control panel. Even during her entire time of searching and feeling, she never let go of my hand. She felt around and was able to locate the control panel. My concentration, though wavering because of the phenomenon was still present enough to remember that we were screwed.

They had changed the access code, we were locked in the control room.

“I’ve got it, come on!” The sound of the door opening let me know that she was right; had she somehow guessed the access code? What was going on here?

As we fell into the corridor that abutted the control room, the light died down. It was more of a comforting glow than an all encompassing brightness. Celine pulled me off the ground and continued to hold my hand. She was running and I had to keep up. Years of smoking did not help this situation.

“Keep Up Edward!” She barked at me, letting go of my hand and breaking into a full sprint. “We have to get away from there!”

“I’m…..Coming!” I was panting heavy. Celine was familiar with the collider room and surrounding buildings, having been present at every one of the tests that were conducted since she joined the family. Darting from stairwell to hallway, I was beginning to lose my sense of location. I had no idea where we were.

“Stop,” Celine suddenly stopped running and was panting heavily. She was fit, but we had been at a full sprint for a good period, and even she was winded.

“Give me your ID card. Come on, quickly!” she ordered, and began reaching for my waist where the card hung. She pulled at it as hard as she could, but the retractable string made it impossible to wrench off. I reached down and helped her unclip it.

“We have to get rid of these, if we don’t they can and will track us,” she explained. She ran into a room at the end of the hall and called to me to follow her.

“Celine! What the hell is going on?! Why did you call them! Did you not think!” My exhaustion allowed me to tap into the quiet anger that I felt towards Celine. Mother explained how clean and clear her betrayal was, and it was coming rushing back”

I ran behind her into the room she had scrambled into and realized that she was attempting to pry open the window that sat in the wall farthest away from the door.

“Help me get this open!” She yelled, the strain evident in her voice. I ran towards her and helped her open the window. It had been months since anyone had cracked the damn thing, but now the fresh and relieving Swiss air filled the room. It was about 3am at this point and the campus was typically quiet. No sign that our armed friends had notified their backup. No sign that the Swiss government and their fellow colluders were hot on our trail.

Celine threw the ID tags out of the window, and they hit the ground 9 floors below. She turned towards me, her eyes affixed in a rictus of horror. She was extremely scared, as was I, but my disgust was still overpowering me.

“What the fuck is going on!? You’re running scared now but you made the call!” I snarled at her, my breath still short, the phlegm gathering in my throat.

“Edward, you have to trust me. We’ve done a terrible thing.” She ran past me, towards the door we had come through, and stuck her head into the hall. I spun around and could see that she was surveying the hallway to make sure we were alone. Celine closed the door, leaving a crack open so she could continue her watch.

“Close the window. We can’t let the sound of our voices drift outside,” she commanded; I obliged and shut the window.

“We’re going to keep the lights off, you stay by the window and keep watch. If you see anything strange let me know. I’ll keep a lookout here and if anything happens, we’ll go through that door and enter the adjoining room,” she said as she gestured towards the door on my right.

“Three weeks ago, I was asleep in my room when my ID tag went off. I wouldn’t have heard it had it not been vibrating on my nightstand. I reached for it, and it said “Living Room; Now” on the display. I had never been called to a meeting in the Living Room at that time of the morning, but I knew what I had to do.”

“Wearing my Pajamas I slipped on my boots, it had been blizzarding all night and the clean, white snow had covered everything. It was so beautiful Edward. I walked across the campus and entered Section A; I was in the Living Room a few minutes later.”

“In the room was myself, Father, and Mother. I thought that I had violated an order or messed up an experiment. There was no way this meeting was good. I immediately asked what was wrong, and Father explained the situation to me.”

“We were finally given clearance to go above 35 TeraElectronVolts (TeV) and knew that if we were going to be successful in this, we would have to start to push for stronger and stronger collisions. I was advised that we would be conducting a collision the following morning at 02:00 and only Father, Mother and myself would be present.”

“I was shocked, why wouldn’t CERN want more scientists present? I interrupted Father and Mother to ask why we were alone, and they advised that if anything should happen, if the connection to another existence was possible, we could not run the risk of information leaking out; that’s at least what they told me. I wanted you there Edward.”

I stood in awe watching Celine explain how myself and the rest of the family had been played. We felt like we had changed the world, when in fact we were runner-up, at best.

“I objected that the Collision couldn’t be run with only a crew of three people. Father and Mother advised that it could be, if we took 3 times as long to bring the collider up to speed. They were right; the three hour window would allow the three of us to enter the programming at a reasonable pace. It would be difficult, but we could do it.”

“I felt so proud, so wonderful, so fucking smart being chosen to be part of the team that was about to shatter the entire world’s perspective of itself. We were going to change existence.”

Celine’s eyes had started to gloss over, I could see tears forming in the corner, but she continued to push forward.

“The following night we started the experiment. As predicted it took three hours to bring the LHC up to collision standards. We started to raise the input from 5.5 TeV finally settling at 34.5TeV When we flipped over to 35, the light phenomenon happened. We were all terrified. We knew that we were successful, but we didn’t know what we were successful in achieving.”

“As the light died down we realized that Mother was missing. He had simply vanished into thin air. No trace of him whatsoever, the only thing that remained was a pile of his clothes and his glasses. Father and I desperately searched the lab not knowing what to do, and just like tonight we landed on the agreement that the only thing we could do, was rerun the collision and hope that we could somehow, anyhow, bring Mother back.”

“It took myself and Father almost a full day to prime the collider. Luckily we were left relatively alone to do our work; Father’s dominant sway and overpowering personality kept most of the nosey authorities off our asses. We stalled for time with such finesse, that even I believed the bullshit we were spewing.”

“Around midnight the following night, we ran the experiment again. Almost a full day had passed and our hopes of bringing back Mother were at an extreme low point. We ran the collision and like clockwork, the blinding light overpowered us, and when we came to, Mother was in the room.”

Celine’s story was unbelieveable. We had already “jumped”, and it was apparently decided that not sharing this information was the healthiest thing to do.

“When Mother remanifested, Father ran up to him. She embraced him with so much love that her respect for the man was glaringly obvious. In the ensuing fracas of checking vitals and establishing that Mother was in fact alive, not to mention also incredibly naked, he came to and began to become lucid.”

At this point I interrupted. “What the hell happened to him?! Was he able to give you details? What did he see. Holy shit, I can’t believe that we’ve done this twice and gotten away with it.” My fear was mixed with an almost childlike excitement at the prospect that we had discovered some sort of portal to another world.

“It’s not that simple Edward.” Celine adopted a whispering tone at this point, though I stuck to every word. This was life changing science, and I wasn’t going to miss a drop of it.

“We decided to tell the authorities that the trial was a failure, and that even 35 TeV wasn’t sufficient to open the doorway.To tear the page.”

“Even if the Swiss government tried to understand the results of the experiment, they would require the help of one of the Family, further increasing the likelihood of information leaking. We decided not to tell anyone for the same reason that you mentioned earlier. Could you imagine what they would do to him if they found out that Mother had made a leap or a jump or a shift or whatever pop-culture reference we want to use to refer to what happened to him?”

“Father tearfully begged me not to inform, to just keep it between the three of us. Even when pressed for answers Mother was at a loss about his experience. He recalled nothing, aside from an incredibly sense of calm and ease. He was under no pressure, encountered no one, and felt like no time had passed. His experience seemed unbelievable but harmless enough.”

It was a relief to know that Mother and Father’s trips were not detrimental to their wellbeing. Even though their happiness was really of no importance to me right now, Celine remained too quiet for this to be the end of her recounting.

“We were so wrong. Mother didn’t come back alone”

A cold chill filled the room. “What do you mean he didn’t come back alone?” I asked, dumbfounded.

“Everything seemed normal for a few days after the experiment. Mother displayed no symptoms, and Father and I had several conversations to make sure that our story about stalling for more time between Mother’s disappearance and reappearance lined up. It wasn’t until three days after the experiment that I realized what we had done.”

“My reluctance was getting the better of me. I had been present for the greatest scientific discovery in the history of the world, and I had watched as a fellow human had been ripped from our existence and then subsequently returned unharmed. Fuck, even astronauts go through a quarantine period after travel. Could Mother be infected with something? Could I go down in history as the scientist, the SCIENTIST, that let the next massive plague spread because I refused to identify patient zero, like my protocol demands that I do?”

Celine’s line of logic was clean and sound. She had witnessed something that could have exposed Mother to some dangerous pathogen that was quietly spreading. Celine continued.

“It began to weigh heavily on me, so I decided 5 days after the collision to tell the authorities. To be sure that I was going to be safely away from Mother when the authorities acted, I decided to jump into the security feed just like I had this afternoon. As I accessed the CCTV feeds, I saw Father making coffee in the main lab lounge area of Section K. Simple enough.”

She paused and locked eyes with me.

“Then I saw him entering a clean room from Section D.”

“Then I saw him walk across the green in front of Section C”

Celine stopped and looked at me.

“Celine, go on.” I urged.

“Edward, don’t you realize what I just said?” She asked in a deadpan tone.

“Yeah, you tracked him throughout the facility.” I responded back to her.

“No Edward, I didn’t see him do those things one after the other. I saw him doing them all at the same time. He was in Section D, C, and K, in the lab, in the lounge, and in the clean room, all at the same time!”

My mind needed a few seconds to process this.

“But how is that possible, someone would have noticed if multiples of the same person were just walking around the place. Did you check the timestamps in the videos?” My scientist mind refused to settle on the doppelganger theory; reason and logic never fail that badly.

Celine remained quiet for a moment, and then whispered in a terrified tone:

“You have to have felt the light in order to see them.”

Before I could react something in my peripheral vision caught my attention. I looked out the window and saw several dozen heavily armed men heading in our directions.

“We have to move, Celine. Now!” I ran across the room, grabbed Celine’s hand and dashed into the hall.
PART 1: http://www.ancientcolony.com/im-a-physicist-at-cern-weve-done-something-we-shouldnt-have-part-1/
PART 2: http://www.ancientcolony.com/im-a-physicist-at-cern-weve-done-something-we-shouldnt-have-part-2/
PART 3: http://www.ancientcolony.com/im-a-physicist-at-cern-weve-done-something-we-shouldnt-have-part-3/




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